Tag Archives: self reflection

Taking charge, Bearing responsibility

Too often, indeed too often, I tend to search outside (externally), from other people’s opinions to find out more of Who I Am?  It has always been a dilemma for me, to discover what is (the reality), to understand who I really am and most importantly to decide my at crossroads, at all paths of life.

      It is as though sometimes,

I may have literally but unknowingly “forced” answers out of other people.

These people around me can never give me the right answers,

because my

Questions

are all about and surrounding

the topic of

How to live a Life that has

no regrets no mistakes

simply wonderful,  amazing,  and perfect. 

One advantage of asking people to help you make decisions is that when something goes wrong, the responsibility will be on these people you’ve seek help from.  Well, I was afraid, overwhelmed with fear, as I’ve made many decisions that led to horrible consequences in the past.

The truth is “It’s not just Me,  We all have.”

But is it really that way?  Just because taking responsibility of our own decisions in our OWN lives seem devastating, unpredictable, risky or perhaps scary, no one can tell you “The Way” to live a good life.

The only person ever responsible is You alone,

Yes, indeed, Life is Tough,

It’s sometimes Overwhelming,

Awful situations Sucks,

There are times where you’ve run out of Energy

thinking that maybe you should cease the meaningless life of yours,

just like Shakespeare’s poem entitled Life’s Brief Candle

Ultimately it’s up to You,

because it’s Your Life,

you do what you want with it.

From a Christian perspective,

We ought to obey God,

learn to live according to His word.

He gives us the choice too,

to obey or not to obey,

the consequences then,

is for us to bear.

Proverbs 16

We can make our own plans, but the Lord gives the right answer.

Take Charge of your life, and Bear Responsibilities, which are ultimately yours.  Mistakes and setbacks are bound to happen.  Without them, how would we know what to avoid?  Without them, how do we train ourselves to bounce back quickly from adversities — build resilience?  Just like Thomas Edison, if he didn’t fail many many times, how can we able to have various types of lights today?  Accepting that mistakes are unavoidable and are here so that we can learn will help all of us to walk that first step, courageously and boldly, as we journey down the life-long course called “LIFE”.

Something right or something wrong? Getting messier…

Sorta had an idea of writing a post 

that is more close to 

my HEART

Perhaps,

they’re a little more than 

anyone can think of

out-of-this-world

 

 
 

I don’t know

I really don’t

Somehow, 

at the perhaps so-called 

peak of life

at a point where everyone expects

some form of 

dreams,

goals, 

achievements,

vocation,

yadda, yadda, yadda

you name it.

 

On the other side apart from academics 

we presume / assume 

Fun

Joy

Peace

Happiness

Hope

Friends

Family 

Love

and many more of 

“the.good.things”

fall in the place.

 

Or at the very least

thought so

 

 

in the very essence

of life

I can safely say

many wanted

a sense of 

Self

Stability

Freedom

perhaps,

Wealth and 

the Temporary “happiness”

and

they will be satisfied.

 

 

In my current course of life

waves of stories 

like knitting a sweater

for winter 

I’d say

everyday

these stories

are constantly changing

fluctuating

The plot

has never been

fixed

 

It has come to a point 

there’s just 

void

emptiness

it’s like a hole

a black hole 

just like the ones

in the outer space

 

 

Daily motions

this is also another thing

I go through it

the daily motions

day-by-day

week-by-week

along the way

as I repeat these routines

s.t.u.d.y

p.a.r.t. t.i.m.e. j.o.b

s.h.o.w.e.r

f.o.o.d

s.l.e.e.p

I doubt I existed

 

 

At this moment

I’m lost

clueless of

whether or not

there’s something wrong 

in myself

 

Most times,

I feel fine

capable

amazing

confident

sociable

pretty

you name any positive description 

of a girl similar to my age

I feel that

 

And here comes

the hurricane

that hits

no matter

rain or sunshine

 

 

Tomorrow

is another of Pdoc’s appointment

As I try my very best to find out

if anything is going on

or whateva is going on

 

I sincerely hope

whatever choice I make

will be the right one. 

 

Drowsily and tiredly

Signing off