I FUCK LIFE!!!! WONT YOU MOOD SWINGS and BP2 LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO TIRED, I CANT SEEM TO DO ANYTHING RIGHT darn it!!! Another hours of suffering… that will never end. What’s the POINT!!! look at the bright side. what bright side? You feel a little ok now right? Then it’s gonna be fine. You always do get fine. I will be soon..
Today is yet another day where I feel the downs again. I just am disappointed in my inability to predict what my mood will be in the next moment. I don’t know, really.
I waited for a time where I could have my privacy. I called a local helpline, not putting any expectations, just calling hoping for someone to lean on, who will listen to me.
As usual, the beginning of the conversation while calling a helpline is full of fear. I trembled as I try to explain my condition to the stranger at the line on the other side of the phone.
I felt comfort as the person emphatise with my condition. She seemed to be able to comprehend what I was saying. I felt relieved. After 1 hour of talk, she gave me some tips to cope with my overwhelming moments of depressive states.
I slept the night feeling peaceful.